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is it sad that i miss having my facebook? it's way less spam-ful than myspace, and a lot more people have it in the first place now. but i suppose it kind of risks some things i'll be getting into. so to those who don't know, my mom threatened not to leave my brother and i alone while they left to chicago because she saw a picture of me on facebook that was recently tagged holding a beer. it just upset me so much i got rid of it. chances are i'll prolly pick it back up some day but probably not this year or next because i recently picked up an RA position at St.Scholastica for next year. and well, colleges have been known to not accept people based on things they've found on their personal pages on the internet. and i think the whole tagging of photos really risks that kind of thing. so i guess i'm just a myspace kind of dude for now.
so another thing, my situation with bands have been left and right as of late and i thought i'd clear them up. but the funniest thing is i chose to clear this up in a place i know a majority of people don't even read. but i spose it's for the record so i can look back upon this and say, "chris you dumb mutha trucka." so Bear Garden will be dismantling soon. there is not a single emotion, or combination of emotions or words that i can explain how this makes me feel. the one constant in my life, the one thing i'm most proud of, the one thing i can really release with, will be dismantling. we're going to record a last thing, not sure how many tracks yet. we will also be throwing on a last show. i really hope to see as many of my friends there as possible. but it will remain rather open. it's not a DEFINITE good bye. but just for now for sure. show will happen sometime in the spring or summer. as of now, i am in 2 bands then. i did drums for United Men Divide one show, and have been transfered to guitar/synth for them. it's really fun. i absolutely love how cam writes and what he writes. so any time i get to write off that is just fricken fun. the music is great, the guys are great, it's a hella great time. another band i am involved with is Viv. in italian, it means life. in American, it means "FUCK YEAH!" i play drum for these homies. only problem is i don't have a drumset. soon though, soon. but this music, is so damn fun to play. it's a more easy listening indie/rock/classic kind of soung. using basic song structure and amazing little boys who can wait on string instruments and vocal chords, it's just a party and a half.
www.myspace.com/beargarden
www.myspace.com/unitedmendivide
www.myspace.com/vivband
so i finally got my long awaited record player to actually work. there was an array of problems that came along with it but it is in excellent working condition now. i'm so damn stoked on it. i've came to the conclusion that i will probably never listen to my cd's anymore because i have them on my ipod. so, why not sell them? and as for the vinyl, it always comes with way sweeter stuff, artwork, and it just sounds so smoooooooth. so the rest of my musical collection with now be vinyl and mp3's. in fact, many new vinyl that's coming out comes with a code in which you can just go online and get the mp3's anyway. and it's not like i'm not going to go on the internet and pirate all the music anyway.
oh yeah, and i'm way single.
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[13 Feb 2008|02:10pm] |
i'm seeing Justice live in Chicago.
and you're probably not.
so this might mean many of us can no longer be friends.
that is all
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[05 Feb 2008|12:58am] |
is it just me being picky or are there really no more outstanding women out there anymore?
i can hear it now...
"aim low chris, aim low."
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[30 Jan 2008|11:21pm] |
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speaking of page turning, it's starting to feel more and more like a new chapter's starting in my life. and i'm getting really stoked about it.
so i've been downloading movies like mad. everything from Juno, I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry, Black Snake Moan, No Country For Old Men, The Golden Compass, the entire series of Six Feet Under, and I am now in the process of getting all the episodes from Planet Earth. i guess, my question is, why is this so easy?!?!?!
so i'm starting a solo project, and really not sure what i want to do with it. my brother al wants to do bass as well as my buddy kyle. i'd rather put kyle on vocals and al on bass if anything. i'm not even sure if this is going all pull through but it's something i really want to do. i talked to my drumline teacher and he was saying it'd be possible for me to record drums and stuff at Scho Scho since i don't have a drum set or anything. i just need a decent 4 track, a couple sm57's, and a preamp of some type. Nolan had this gnarly tube preamp thing i wanna use for guitars and bass. i'm leaning towards a combination of This Ship Will Sink and Takaru sound, but rythmic challenges and quirkiness of Red Animal War. I'm really stoked to see how it even turns out. i wanna tune to C#, but not sure on that either. any other tuning suggestions?
Red Animal War has this gnarly side project called The Numbers Twist. amazing stuff.
i'm going to go to the Scholastica play on friday. i can't remember what it's called but it's a comedy and Tom Auchenmacher is in it. anyone wanna come with?
there's too many cute girls at scholastica. and too little i've done about that.
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[24 Jan 2008|05:23pm] |
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"the only freedom i ask of you to give up is the freedom to act irresponsibly"
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[10 Jan 2008|02:23pm] |
2008 = water, coffee, milk.
i wanna tour with matt for 3 months. i might. i might go to boston early march. i'm changing my major social work. i plan to become a high school counselor i finally found another good pair of jeans i like. i'm more than likely going back to alaska. the more i think about it the more it just makes sense. i'm sick of living at home. i'm excited for a new semester of school. i've been listening to Warren G a lot. i've been playing my wii a lot. mario galaxy is mind blowing. i'm stoked for my tax returns. no country for old men was a crazy ass/good movie.
i could use some change.
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[03 Dec 2007|11:05am] |
manipulation, worthlessness, and drugs. our lives are but controlled by these three things.
manipulation - we live in a society where everything must be accessible at all times, no matter what the cost. step back and think for a second, how easy is it for you right this instant to get anything you want. ANYTHING. getting what you want today requires no work, just money. you can get or do whatever you want with green paper. we worship these sheets of paper. we take common day to day activities, and speed them up in order to fit in our schedules. food at the snap of a finger, get your car washed without even getting out, purchasing clothes or any other item delivered to your door over night. we are but manipulating every aspect of our earth to please ourselves. if we treat our planet like we treat our women today, as an object and not as a living thing, we will surely cease to exist. we are raping our planet.
worthlessness - society runs off of levels of worthlessness. we give labels and names to people without so much as looking at them. we will judge a person by the description of them from another person within a story without even knowing it. the world runs on your level of worth. this idea is created by man. and like many things created by man, is faulty. this system changes on a daily basis, and as does your worth. your worth consists of how you dress, what you buy, how you act, what you eat, where you live, who you are related to, and how you look in general. these judges are man, man is imperfect and faulty, do you trust their judgment or your own?
drugs - always searching, never ceasing, always flowing, never asking, always using, never living. drugs are an escape. drugs are increasingly becoming more accessible. drugs are mandatory at parties. drugs will loosen you up. drugs will open you. drugs will close you. drugs will rape you. drugs will control you. "all things in moderation". man kind has lost all sense of the term moderation. it's about how fucked up you got. it's about how many beers you had, how many hits you took, how many pills you popped. drugs are directly linked with manipulation and worthlessness. you are manipulating yourself to rid your mind of your worthlessness. man has many problems with moderation. which is why we measure alcohol levels and put laws on them. which is why we have enough bombs to blow up the world more than twice. which is why we have a problem with global warming. which is why a majority of americans are overweight. which is why there are abortions. which is why there is war. which is why some people die.
what can i do?
be you, not them.
no matter how you say it,
it still carries the consistent connotation
you are but smearing your art
by using that color
there are those who die
and those who carry wounds
from the phonics and the fists
it may come as a joke to you
but these hands will choke you through
if i ever hear those colors
if i ever see those sounds
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[06 Nov 2007|04:46pm] |
there is this RIDICULOUSLY amazingly unfathomably cute girl that i (sorta kinda okay not really that well) know, and today, she was playing counter strike.
and i was in heaven....
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[04 Nov 2007|11:01pm] |
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[01 Nov 2007|03:16pm] |
it's like being a baker. i have all the right ingredients, i have a good idea as to how to put it together, but i am just scared that i'll fuck it up. so i don't cook. i don't even attempt to cook. and it's not meeting the ingredients i have a problem with, it's the actual cooking process i'm worried about. not so much for myself, but that i'll somehow ruin the ingredient. and i love eating. i absolutely love eating. i've made some amazing dishes before, but right now, i'm hungry.
i need to be more active in general
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[09 Oct 2007|05:02pm] |
what's the difference between common sense, common courtesy, and common consequence?
honesty
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[09 Oct 2007|05:00pm] |
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speaking of years going by! i haven't missed a beat in the songs you make. yet i fear these gray skies below me. where can i find the time to soak in these wave lengths? each one greets my being oh so pleasantly and equally. i can't seem to measure the things that you hold back in your mind. yet my senses sense it so clearly, so fearlessly. you've got too many mouths to feed with holes you can't see. i can't give you the recognition you deserve because i'm one of the holes, starving in reply. when the people see the harvest you've brought in, i will convince them this time, this time we won't prevail. don't be sorry. what are you sorry for?
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[05 Oct 2007|11:13pm] |
tomorrow i'm going to bayfield for the apple fest
to drink cider beer and put this stomach to the test
today was kinda busy although i made it through
cause all i really thought about was cider home brew
apples apples apples no bananas i eat
carmel, deep fried, pies, all i'll defeat
i want the yummy tasty goodness to reside within me
apple fest is going to be the party of the century
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[03 Oct 2007|02:49pm] |
i built a bridge in the west end on this trail today
it felt fucking awesome
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[30 Sep 2007|01:15pm] |
i can't tell if hugo was the right thing for me to do, or not.
it's facinating how people complain how much homework and things there are to do in college when at times i find myself bored with nothing to do. either way i couldn't care less. right now i just really don't like school. i feel it's the last place i should be in my life right now. i took a road trip to see a friend i had made a few weeks back. i hung out with her and her ex-boyfriend really wanted to hang out too. so we went and saw the I-35 bridge and got some chipotle. i fucking love chipotle and i think i left the rest of my burrito in her car. shit. i should have her mail it to me it's that good. then we watched Road Hogs or whatever, the single most terrible movie i've ever seen. then watched blades of glory which was a lot better than i expected. she didn't seem quite like her full self when we were with her friend. i don't know, it was hard to pin point. then i woke up at 7AM and drove all the way back. there's something about being in a car by yourself for over and hours worth of driving that's just so relaxing and insightful for me. well even with people in the car. which is why i liked driving so much on tour. i had to pull a lot of strings in order to get that to happen, but it was worth it. i think i need to start just taking mini-road trips for the hell of it more often. next week my sister and i are going to apple fest in wisconsin in which i'm hell stoked for. prolly gunna be some sick cider beer. i've picked up skating again and it just does wonders to my mind. it puts me at an ease no other thing in my life can. however i rock the nerd style wrist gaurds but if you spent over two years of your life in casts due to a skate injury, you sure as fuck would wear gaurds. but every mon, wed, and fri i have a 2 and a half hour break between a couple classes and i just drive to soup town, pop on the ipod, and have the whole park to myself. i'm already learning things i haven't been able to do before. about a week ago or so i went to this skate house where everyone i used to skate with was there. i watched their video and everyone one of them asked me if i was still skating and unfortunately had to say no. they all laughed and gave me shit. then mark jenesen and i went out and had a good long talk. skating puts me in a place no other single thing i do in my life can. it's like meditating for me. and when i stop, i get out of whack. i don't think band practice will go down on monday and i'm bummed on that. i miss a lot of my old friends. i miss Cody and Kyle. i'm stoked for winter. i think i'm gunna get a moped with my tax returns coming up. i don't really like being single. i am forever in debt and greatful for all of my wholesome loving friends.
for ben:
the building still sits in my back yard
our paths are over grown
i breathe resistance against every human being ever since
your heart was far to good for this world
and i'm stuck searching for my own
i'm still fighting for everything you've ever taught me
our fathers and mothers worry about us
no matter the faces i fear or the souls i shriek
i'm fighting for us
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| "chris plays in your boyfriend a lot apparently" |
[26 Sep 2007|11:31pm] |
for alaska:
it's as if all i've ever known is this blood beneath my feet
i stare across these waters
wondering what's the count these reapers bring in
this hell they call home will never reach that close to me
our sanity lies weeks away
over mountains we'll fly
still we're stuck in the flesh of a million deaths
counting down the days and dollars of our own
there are voices you can hear
so faintly across the valleys
they cry
please come home alive
i'm at a point in my life right now where i really have no fucking clue what's going on. it's as if everything has suddenly come to a screeching halt, and then flat lines. which is the weirdest thing, because everything in my life right now is so in line. i now work at Sammy's in lakeside and i freaking love that job and the people i work with. school is pretty fricken rad, and pretty fricken free. bear garden is starting to write new material that blows my own mind. "everything is in its right place." yet i feel different than that. my thoughts are that having such a busy and eventful summer, home just feels like such a slower pace. but i don't think that's quite it. something else is definitely occupying my mind. and i need to find out what.
fuck this
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[07 Jun 2007|02:57pm] |
here's the thing
so i'm going to alaska to work, and the first few weeks you can listen to your ipod before the inspector comes. so i need a shit ton of new music. albums. songs. eps. anything. 16 hour days. as many good albums as you can think of, toss my way.
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[21 May 2007|11:14pm] |
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i have the single most adorable, fun, cute, caring girlfriend in the world right now.
i'm really glad i got to be in the last night of the play i did understudy for.
i'm so fucking excited for all the new things Bear Garden is beginning.
i'm really slacking in school right now but i've been accepted into scholastica, and have already passed my classes for this semester, so to be honest, i don't give a flying fun house!
i'm curious how these next few days are going to be before i leave for alaska, oh yea
i'm going to alaska to work at a fishery for 5 weeks this summer, 16 hour days every day of the week, $4,000, mmhmm.
i can not wait for tour, it is going to be the single most amazing experience of my life regardless of how it turns out.
i'm still undecided on how i like the shoes i bought.
i love the design my brother did for the Bear Garden hoodies, perfect.
i'm not going to my senior banquet, just doesn't sound all that appealing.
i can't put into word how jubilant i am that high school drama/work/shitiness/everything is over.
i love longboarding absolutely everywhere i go, plus it keeps me in shape
i hope BG can find a good van for tour.
i'm in need of some new tunes.
i'm listening to all my parents old vinyl.
i really really really really really like this girl, a lot. things have been better than i could ever imagine with her. and this relationship in general is entirely different than any other i've ever experienced. mostly because she is entirely different than any girl i've ever met. i can't even put into words exactly what it is that makes her so different. my life is so overwhelmed with problematics and inconsistencies that more often than not leave me panicing for some way to let my frustration out and ease myself. but there's something about her, that when i look at her, or even think of her, that just calms me. she has such a calm and care-free personality that, well, inspires me. i love people who can inspire me, especially when it's the one i'm dating. i don't even want to think what's going to happen after summer.
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to quote Meatwad
"yeah man, what are you going to do about it?"
and to be honest, there's so much i want to do, say, and all of the above. but it's been a hell of a long time since i've not only dealt with these types of situations, but i haven't felt like this such a long time. and not only am i psyched that i have the priviledge to feel these feelings again, but to know that someone can trigger these feelings. she's definitely got a handle on this trigger. and so i sit here, thinking about it like a little kid, talking to her friends about her like a little kid, talking to my friends about her like a little kid, and not being able to wipe this massive shit grin off my face each and every time it comes to mind. it's my favorite feeling in the entire world. and i wanna say something, but don't want to scare her. and this, this is where i'm stuck. and to be honest, i didn't even think i'd have the courage to even talk to this girl who for so long i've been straight up just intimidated by her cuteness, let alone be in a situation as to where i'm debating such a dillema. and to answer yer question Meatwad, i don't know, i don't know what i'm going to do next.
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[29 Mar 2007|12:21am] |
so far
SO good
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